Posts Tagged ‘opening’

escaping sensation

Thursday, March 5th, 2009

in yoga, it’s best to avoid pain, and i advise students to find the edge where they can be comfortable but with just enough effort.

The posture should be comfortable and easy.
~ Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras

yoga is not static. even when “holding” postures, there is movement in the body. energy flows from the ground up, from the crown down to the feet, and through outstretched arms. as the body finds alignment, sensations change. as the posture is held muscles feel different, strength waxes and wanes, the breath may become shallow, and then on reminder, become deep again.

it’s fun to explore postures. in a high lunge, wiggling the hips from side to side opens up the joints, and provides stretches in different places. find the sensation, and stay in it, holding, breathing into it. create space with your breath.

are you escaping?

yet it is also possible to “wiggle” enough to escape sensation. possible to arrange the posture “just so”, in a way perhaps that looks nice, or gets deeper, but doesn’t stretch the muscles evenly, or doesn’t stretch them at all. sometimes it is about relaxation. sometimes the skeleton finds itself compressed in a joint, and a person’s unique skeleton requires a shift, perhaps not in ideal alignment to ‘get by the bone’. people’s shoulders can be this way. some people can’t lift their arms up over their head from the front - they get to shoulder height and have to come out to the side. it can be like this in different places in the body.

becoming more aware of the difference between healthy sensation and pain, and sensation and escape from sensation, are useful inquiries.

try this at home

come into a forward bend: exhale, hinge at the hips, and instead of rounding the back to get as close to your knees as possible, keep the back straight. one way to try this is to place hands on hips as you come down. exhale on the way down, draw your belly in, and your hips will have more room to fold over. breathe. feel the stretch in your hamstrings, all the way up your legs. move your hips slightly. draw your tailbone down towards ground. don’t not drop your hands just yet.. keep your back straight.

if you can’t reach the floor, you may want props. it might be blocks, or if you don’t have those, try anything else that’s stable enough. thick books, a bench/low stool, or even a chair. bend one knee and straighten the other knee. alternate back and forth, releasing the tension in one leg and increasing sensation in the other. hold on one side. even out the hips. extend out of your waist. keep a straight back. hold on the other side. come back into a full forward bend with both knees straight.

then come into the forward bend you may be used to doing, the one that gets you closer to your knees. do you notice a difference in sensation? do you feel your lower back more now? do you feel less of a stretch in your hamstrings? is the sensation lower or higher up your legs? both may give you a stretching sensation, but notice the difference. try the first one again. is it more intense?

ego? comfort? go inside and look

think about whether you are striving to get your head to your knees when you are at your regular yoga class. notice if you feel reluctant to back off and go for the bigger stretch because it doesn’t look as impressive, or make you feel as flexible (if you feel strongly that your striving is for your own personal challenge only).

both forward bends are okay, though if you have problems with your lower back you want to try and keep a straight back. if you have osteopenia or osteoporosis, be careful with forward bends, especially coming back up to standing.

explore sensation, find the edge, and honour your body — where it is at today, right now. you’ll get “further” in the long run, i promise.

namaste

openings

Friday, February 6th, 2009

i want to put aside the law of attraction and any motivational shtuff for a moment. okay.

the ideas coming out of western adoption of “yogic hinduism”, buddhism, i ching, well, they’re very interesting and creative, current, timely and perhaps more palatable versions of the deep wellspring that is ancient wisdom.

i’m new at this, but i’ve been doing it for thousands of years. i’m a ‘budding buddhist’; i am only beginning to realize the extent of my suffering; i am only beginning to tease out the illusions and attachments i have suffered under

so, i’m riding the wave of life as a fledgling. i’m stumbling, withdrawing, protesting, posturing, and striving my way to some sort of greater awareness. yoga has helped me. judaism has helped me. buddhism has helped me. so have yoga teacher training, psychotherapy, anthropology graduate school, my lovers, my failures, and everything in between.

i graduated as a certified kripalu yoga teacher in august 2008. it was an incredible experience, and it showed me pieces of myself i had thought disappeared. my lover, who had ended things a short time before my training, saw me in this new state and in a way realized that i was deeper and stronger than i’d seemed. he opened, as i began to open.

pain

like many souls - if not all souls - on the journey, my heart has known great pain. i think it’s because of this pain that i’ve grown a compassionate heart. my challenges are mental and physical. sometimes i feel as though i am the finest seismograph to the emotional landscape.

i spent a lot of years closed off — or trying to close off — the intensity of emotion that i experience. looking into people’s eyes sometimes hurts. physical proximity stirs up a lot, and i draw back. the presence of my own self has been too much to bear, at times. “i” needed to disappear. depression and anxiety have been almost lifelong.

opening

the world has been opening, as i have been opening. it seems, actually, that these two things are not different, because i-being is not separate from world-being. there is no “out there” that isn’t a reflection of what is “in here”.

that is what i am learning from my current journey. as i open my heart, physically through yoga, emotionally through yoga, and even more through teaching yoga, i am becoming more connected with my suffering. i learned about witness consciousness, which is a way to observe the self, non-judgmentally. bring kind to myself has meant that i am doing less of that closing off. being kind to myself has made it possible for me to learn how to ask and receive kindness from others.

witnessing the ways i am being in the world has opened up realms of possibility. i see things i have to offer people, and i have opened enough to share some of them.

teaching yoga is one of those things. i was so afraid, i had no idea why anyone would want *me* to teach them yoga! however i have received such blessings from teaching. i continue to find a world open to me, as i open to myself.

attraction

what about attraction, then? i am sensing that i am not attracting things too me, as if they were being manifested by me — they were always already there.

so opening is a process of discovery. a treasure hunt!

in JOY,
namaste